Today is not what I made it to be but what I know it to be . . . I'm here not for my own self but because I Know my Lord will be here and my only wish is that those that feel like they are lost will find their way to what I feel and know in my soul is to be the only cure.
I was listening to Tye Tribett "Chasing After you" when I say that this song is just a beautiful example of how we as Christians need that longing to chase after GOD . . . Seek His face. . .Soul is crying out for more of Him more Of Him . . . O My God that rights there alone is where my heart just feels his sprit wraps around me . . . Since I've started my blog..It's like the enemy doesn't want me to tell my story and help someone else . . .
Pray, Pray, Calling for Prayer . . . My passion is to help those that don't know their own worth. I feel so strongly about this thing right here. I was there and if I want to be honest sometimes I get lost in that wave path too. I pray that the Lord above will just cover me/us and keep me/us strong in his word but that takes staying in the word and keeping your focus on Him 24/7!!!! You ask how can that be accomplishing . . . Glad you ask let me tell you . . . Start surrounding yourself with like-minded people and begin to learn who God is for you . . . Stay away from those that don't or won't respect where you are trying to move with you life . . . What I've learned is that you can't let anyone stop you form where you're trying to go with GOD . . .
Sometimes I'd dream of what life would have been like if I wasn't following others footsteps how far would I be in Christ or would I even be in Christ at all. Well to be honest my life had to travel this way because if it didn't I would not have had an understanding of whom God is in my life . . . Waking up next to people I didn't know just to get that self satisfaction, not Knowing that anybody could love me like God . . . Thinking that my body was less then beautiful because I didn't look like most of the females on TV . . . Just not having that love for me . . . So I belittled myself by allowing others to belittle me too . . . Used and abused my own body . . . Because I was unaware that I was a JEWEL for His Holiness . . . OH God I mistreated myself because I couldn't see what God Saw when he created me . . . So my plea is that we learn our self worth that goes for men and women . . . For us women how can we meet our Adam when we still are carrying around Craig, Steve and Jamal in our bodies . . . for the men how can you meet your Eve if you're still holding on to Stacy, Tia, and Kim . . . Where does life go if you can't deliver them out of your spirit. Just think about it . . . Don't give up your power . . .
Look to Him, Give to Him, Love on Him, Pray to Him, Believe in Him, Only Him;Too Late to Turn Back Now!!!!
I pray Lord I'm doing your will and only your will
Take me out of it and speak through me so that I may help bring your people back home.
*Love and Kisses Tiff*
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Entering In
Hello Again
My second day and I'm already like WOW!!!!
Well today I woke up feeling like I had to do something special today. It was a good day and it still is....Yesterday Blog was deep for me because I 'm use to just keeping things to myself and to give a little of my story was very astounding. Not saying that I would not share my story but I still like to look like I've been saved since birth but we all know that is a lie. LOL! But really life sometimes makes you feel so many things and sometimes your mind is at the point where it doesn't know what to do....... But man when I tell you that to be at peace in your mind and to start having that feeling of over coming many things is priceless... Feels like I should do one of the commercials for what is priceless and what is not. Sally brought tickets online for a Nickel back's concert for her son= 85.00 The look on her son's face when she gave it to him = Priceless. LOL!!!
Family, Friends, Lover, Partner
I've just realize that Family can sometimes lead you in the direction that may not be where God wants for you.
Along with friends too... But what’s so funny about friends, lovers and those we call partners is that we tend to choose the friends that we most envy or desire to be like. Our inner self wants to be that person that can get all the attention whether good or bad, wants to be the one people fear/hate on whatever it may be. But when you start to desire the things of others that’s when you denounce the very thing that God has giving to you.. As I look in the mirror at myself and really start answering the questions that is being thrown back into my face I start/started to realize that I told God that He made a mistake with me that He didn't pour into me the things that would make me a great person. Then I fond myself trying to make myself into the person that I thought I should be... Wait I know I'm not the only person that has done it....Lets throw some examples out there: Wear fitted clothes because you think that if you wore the items that showed off your figure/butt whatever you would be fly.....LOL instead you probably looked tight...okay one more you would spend your last on what you thought everybody else was either rocking or doing just so that you could fit in with Jones. Well If you haven't someone around you have. But whatever the case maybe you felt that way.
Pressure from the World
While having a conversation with my lovely Grandmother she began to talk to me about when we become save that we are evicted from the world and that we no longer fit into it's make up. Can't remember exactly the scriptures she gave to me but it came out of Exodus and its the part when Moses goes to Him and asked him to let his people go for 3 nights so they could pray to GOD....But what stuck out as we were talking was that part where Moses asked for his people to be release. Why it stuck out to me I don't know......But as she was explaining it to me that’s when God began to really speak to me about that... I chosen to be evicted from this earth and I get myself in more trouble when I try to move back into the same place I left..it don't feel right, its not natural... so when you leave the realm of His holiness you begin to try harder to fit into a place where really everyone around you know you don't belong but you.
Final thought
Being please at where you are in GOD is a big thing that you must be able to just breath when you feel that you are not progressing as fast you think in GOD... Our progress and God's progress is totally different and where we maybe use to fast and the quick action God just wants us and his holiness.... So when you feel that your not moving fast enough step back and ask God to grant you patience and when He feels that you have waited enough his grace shall fall upon you.
Wait on Him, love on Him, look towards Him, be with Him... Not saying it's easy but what do u really have to lose if you do.
Love and Kisses Tiff
My second day and I'm already like WOW!!!!
Well today I woke up feeling like I had to do something special today. It was a good day and it still is....Yesterday Blog was deep for me because I 'm use to just keeping things to myself and to give a little of my story was very astounding. Not saying that I would not share my story but I still like to look like I've been saved since birth but we all know that is a lie. LOL! But really life sometimes makes you feel so many things and sometimes your mind is at the point where it doesn't know what to do....... But man when I tell you that to be at peace in your mind and to start having that feeling of over coming many things is priceless... Feels like I should do one of the commercials for what is priceless and what is not. Sally brought tickets online for a Nickel back's concert for her son= 85.00 The look on her son's face when she gave it to him = Priceless. LOL!!!
Family, Friends, Lover, Partner
I've just realize that Family can sometimes lead you in the direction that may not be where God wants for you.
Along with friends too... But what’s so funny about friends, lovers and those we call partners is that we tend to choose the friends that we most envy or desire to be like. Our inner self wants to be that person that can get all the attention whether good or bad, wants to be the one people fear/hate on whatever it may be. But when you start to desire the things of others that’s when you denounce the very thing that God has giving to you.. As I look in the mirror at myself and really start answering the questions that is being thrown back into my face I start/started to realize that I told God that He made a mistake with me that He didn't pour into me the things that would make me a great person. Then I fond myself trying to make myself into the person that I thought I should be... Wait I know I'm not the only person that has done it....Lets throw some examples out there: Wear fitted clothes because you think that if you wore the items that showed off your figure/butt whatever you would be fly.....LOL instead you probably looked tight...okay one more you would spend your last on what you thought everybody else was either rocking or doing just so that you could fit in with Jones. Well If you haven't someone around you have. But whatever the case maybe you felt that way.
Pressure from the World
While having a conversation with my lovely Grandmother she began to talk to me about when we become save that we are evicted from the world and that we no longer fit into it's make up. Can't remember exactly the scriptures she gave to me but it came out of Exodus and its the part when Moses goes to Him and asked him to let his people go for 3 nights so they could pray to GOD....But what stuck out as we were talking was that part where Moses asked for his people to be release. Why it stuck out to me I don't know......But as she was explaining it to me that’s when God began to really speak to me about that... I chosen to be evicted from this earth and I get myself in more trouble when I try to move back into the same place I left..it don't feel right, its not natural... so when you leave the realm of His holiness you begin to try harder to fit into a place where really everyone around you know you don't belong but you.
Final thought
Being please at where you are in GOD is a big thing that you must be able to just breath when you feel that you are not progressing as fast you think in GOD... Our progress and God's progress is totally different and where we maybe use to fast and the quick action God just wants us and his holiness.... So when you feel that your not moving fast enough step back and ask God to grant you patience and when He feels that you have waited enough his grace shall fall upon you.
Wait on Him, love on Him, look towards Him, be with Him... Not saying it's easy but what do u really have to lose if you do.
Love and Kisses Tiff
Monday, September 21, 2009
Killing of the Flesh
Well I can't believe I really did it...Started a blog.... A blog not only to write away the pain that comes with killing your flesh put to help those that may be going through the same issues as myself.
A little about me: I'm 23 years old and I'm a single mother, I've been saved since I was about 13 years old but been in church forever it seems like....I love God but its hard to turn away from our comfort zone.....God is my life he has brought me out of so much in my life that if it was not for me I would not be here in the mind set that I'm in now. Sounds so scripted but so true........Had my son at 16 thinking that it would bring me closer with his dad when all it did was pushed us further apart....Loving someone so much because you never knew what it felt like to be love by your own parents....Raised my grandparents because my parents loved drugs and the streets more then they love my brother and I.. So from the time I could remember I was looking for that Acceptance factor....Well let me tell you that's the hardest thing you can ever do because i adapted to whatever the situation was so that they would not think i was weird. I wanted some one to validate that I was beautiful and they needed me but what I got was a lot of sex partners and their spirits connected to me. Living with my on worries then i added other worries on to me....the person that i was or i thought i was...was gone i couldn't find her because it was buried with other on me.....So my head kept talking and i could understand what was what anymore so i started drinking and smoked so that i couldn't hear them anymore and When that started I had more partners....Sidebar I don't know who they were anymore remember their faces but that's it names couldn't tell you.....LOST and DARK was all i could see.....feeling that I was a failure as a mother and a child of GOD....GOD was clean and I'm dirty was all I could think of he doesn't like Dirt....So I couldn't come to him in my condition....my my my as I smh.....If that isn't the biggest misconception of GOD........God is the cleaner and his son Jesus washes us clean when he died on Calvary....Why can't us Christians get that but instead we tend to try to fix it and we add more scares on top of the ones that were already their instead of letting GOD heal us...I honestly believe that we make God's work harder because of our own self will that He gave to us...that dag on self will!!LOL
Needles to say its a working process because my spirit is still fighting with flesh and the flesh is a stubborn thing...it doesn't like not to be in control.
So I say this before I check out a Prayer:
Dear God, my father, my friend,my lover, my everything I come to you not for my own needs but for those that feel as if they are to dirty or unclean to come to you and asked that you can have mercy on them and that you can stop them in whatever they may be doing and speak to their heart Lord
Asked that you can provide them with what they are looking for and that you can fill them up with your love so that they may know who You are and love on you and so that they may be used for Your work O Lord....Your kindness and mercy shall never go unnoticed and for that I know that its all ready done in Your name....I bless you for who you are and for what you have shown me in my life and through my eyes.....I thank you for never giving up on me My Lord and for never letting me Go.....Thank you for all the positive people you placed in my life to help me through this thing I like to call Life......this world is no longer fit for me but with you in my corner you make it easier to walk in and Live in..,.,,.,I hope that i can bring someone to you before I leave this earth that my life can be an example of how your son lived on this earth Lord.....Fix anything and everything around me that is not saying and Screaming I love the LORD......My father...My heart cries out for Peace in the land....those that don't have it Lord I asked that you blow your breath on the land so that those that forgot may believe again and remember your promise for them in their life..... so many thanks that i would like to say but just not enough time but I must say that with out my pastor and rev Nikki, and Michelle who adopted me when my Grandmother passed I would not be here and I asked that you cover them and give them more then what they already asked you for.......Love you so much in Jesus' name AMEN!!!!!
A little about me: I'm 23 years old and I'm a single mother, I've been saved since I was about 13 years old but been in church forever it seems like....I love God but its hard to turn away from our comfort zone.....God is my life he has brought me out of so much in my life that if it was not for me I would not be here in the mind set that I'm in now. Sounds so scripted but so true........Had my son at 16 thinking that it would bring me closer with his dad when all it did was pushed us further apart....Loving someone so much because you never knew what it felt like to be love by your own parents....Raised my grandparents because my parents loved drugs and the streets more then they love my brother and I.. So from the time I could remember I was looking for that Acceptance factor....Well let me tell you that's the hardest thing you can ever do because i adapted to whatever the situation was so that they would not think i was weird. I wanted some one to validate that I was beautiful and they needed me but what I got was a lot of sex partners and their spirits connected to me. Living with my on worries then i added other worries on to me....the person that i was or i thought i was...was gone i couldn't find her because it was buried with other on me.....So my head kept talking and i could understand what was what anymore so i started drinking and smoked so that i couldn't hear them anymore and When that started I had more partners....Sidebar I don't know who they were anymore remember their faces but that's it names couldn't tell you.....LOST and DARK was all i could see.....feeling that I was a failure as a mother and a child of GOD....GOD was clean and I'm dirty was all I could think of he doesn't like Dirt....So I couldn't come to him in my condition....my my my as I smh.....If that isn't the biggest misconception of GOD........God is the cleaner and his son Jesus washes us clean when he died on Calvary....Why can't us Christians get that but instead we tend to try to fix it and we add more scares on top of the ones that were already their instead of letting GOD heal us...I honestly believe that we make God's work harder because of our own self will that He gave to us...that dag on self will!!LOL
Needles to say its a working process because my spirit is still fighting with flesh and the flesh is a stubborn thing...it doesn't like not to be in control.
So I say this before I check out a Prayer:
Dear God, my father, my friend,my lover, my everything I come to you not for my own needs but for those that feel as if they are to dirty or unclean to come to you and asked that you can have mercy on them and that you can stop them in whatever they may be doing and speak to their heart Lord
Asked that you can provide them with what they are looking for and that you can fill them up with your love so that they may know who You are and love on you and so that they may be used for Your work O Lord....Your kindness and mercy shall never go unnoticed and for that I know that its all ready done in Your name....I bless you for who you are and for what you have shown me in my life and through my eyes.....I thank you for never giving up on me My Lord and for never letting me Go.....Thank you for all the positive people you placed in my life to help me through this thing I like to call Life......this world is no longer fit for me but with you in my corner you make it easier to walk in and Live in..,.,,.,I hope that i can bring someone to you before I leave this earth that my life can be an example of how your son lived on this earth Lord.....Fix anything and everything around me that is not saying and Screaming I love the LORD......My father...My heart cries out for Peace in the land....those that don't have it Lord I asked that you blow your breath on the land so that those that forgot may believe again and remember your promise for them in their life..... so many thanks that i would like to say but just not enough time but I must say that with out my pastor and rev Nikki, and Michelle who adopted me when my Grandmother passed I would not be here and I asked that you cover them and give them more then what they already asked you for.......Love you so much in Jesus' name AMEN!!!!!
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