At times I wonder Why has life just taking its toll on me and what inside of me do I see that makes my scream for this longing to have the things i desire right now and come out with a hand full of crap. its not that i don't desire the things that god has for me but its like my time for them never happens when i would like... so since I've last posted I was a mother of one child now I'm a mother of a beautiful little girl that i love...but i have to say i gave a part of me away when having her. it left me empty and a little vague in the inside that i don't know how to recapture.
I never really knew how to love and how love actually can't fix any of the problems that you have tore in the inside with a person..not saying that I love you and that I want you does that equal to the fact that you may be the person holding down the fort. Well this year i say to myself if i don't do anything else but this i want to learn to love myself first with unconditional love... All my imperfection and all my perfection that one doesn't way more then the other...
I love this....writing is truly a release of the hearts ache and i needed to just vent... you like it follow me if not hope you find what you looking for....only speaking the truth here...
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
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